i decided to go home today because i just…needed to be home.
my good friends from home recently graduated and my friends at irvine have begun counting down or avoiding the topic of graduation. we keep telling each other that we don’t want to talk about it because we know that we would start freaking out more than we already are.
but i thought about it on my (spontaneous) drive home
how i only have 4 weeks left of my undergraduate career
in 4 weeks i will say goodbye to a lot of people who i care about
and this won’t be like a “i’ll see you later” goodbye, it will be a real, heart wrenching, ugly crying goodbye.
it’s too fast.
there’s not enough time. there’s never enough time.
i’m not ready,
but i am,
i’ve been preparing for this
now i don’t want to go back to irvine because i know that i’ll just start crying again…more than i am right now.